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09 June 2008
I shouldn't continue my life and misery. Sometimes i really wonder why that fucking few box of panadol didn't kill me. :XX I think 2 or 3 box of extra strong panadol. Screw them. >< >< Should have killed me. I don't wanna live anymore. What's the point of living on when the person you love doesn't even care. You're so sick that you're gonna faint anytime on the streets or, if you're lucky, at home. And nobody cares. Not at all. Not only me. I guess every girl's gonna freak out. I really feel that all these time i had after that incident, was borrowed time. Bits and pieces of me is changing. Till now, a drastic change. I couldn't even recognize this is me. I think the incident went like... It was chinese new year and i went with mummy and mei to the RC under crystal's block. Then mummy went to sing, and we're left at the void deck to play with candles and sparkles. I was smsing JS and was some sort of zai su ku. Saying how bad life was these few months. My eyes was brimming with tears. So I couldn't continue staying with them. I don't wanna be a spoiler. At least they're having fun. I don't want them to stop because of me. Then asked daddy to drive me home first. Worst still i was left alone at home. The more i'll think to the bad side of things. And the stupid penknife don't know why cut le, bleed so much le, Nothing happen de. Still need clean the table somemore. >< stupid panadol also don't work de. Say not more than 8 tablets de. I don't know eat how many 8 tablets and ate some other don't want tablets together. I think flu and cough all that. >< >< then end up in bed. Don't know is fall asleep on the desk or faint don't know where de. Then is morning le. Need to go school. Luckily not late. >< Then reach school jiu bei dar dar scold. JS go tell her de la.. Hai~ From then on, i'm not myself anymore. I thought i should be more appreciative of my life after that, but i feel like dying even more. Hai~ i never liked this feeling.
~ANGELA `♥
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